It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives to his beloved sleep.
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children on one's youth.
Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.
This is the psalm that hit home for me as far as the house symbolizes a marriage (or any other relationship). I feel that my marriage did not have God's blessing, He did not build the relationship as His opinion was left out of it. My pregnancy was unsuccessful, I think for several reasons: 1) God knew what was coming with Kenny & I, 2) God has a plan for my life that I don't know all about (yet), 3) children are a blessing from God (a blessing that I feel my marriage didn't have), ***Note that no. 3 only applies to me and my situation and not to anyone going through the heartbreak of infertility/miscarriage/etc. And just because I think it, doesn't mean I'm right!
When I read this, I knew it was okay to let go (in addition to: 1 Cor. 7:15), even though it still bothers me (and probably will, for life).
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